Nightshift

It's amazing how much time has gone by since I've actually taken the time to sit down and write (well in this case, type) exactly what is on my mind..

I have an amazing friend, Lindsay, who has finally FINALLY brought this side of myself back out.. thank you Lindsay.. you're more of an inspiration to me than you'll ever know..

I'm a little rusty so if some of these are hard to follow or you find yourself thinking, 'what the hell' I apologize in advance.  Whoever is reading my nonsense, that is

It's 2am, nightshifts never seem to be easier than the last, probably because I only have one whenever I decide to take one.  Before I get into the deepness, I have to get this out there because everyone who would find it funny is sleeping and I will forget by morning.  My MacBook is running low on battery (mind you, I am sitting in the hallway on a couch cushion) and so just now I go to plug in my charger into the outlet beside me and it is of course broken, or well not allowing my charger to stay in without falling out.  I have a copy of the DSM-IV-TR with me and for any of you psych majors reading this, it's a freaking huge book.  It is the Bible of Psychology, 943 pages to be exact.  I stood this book up against the wall beside me on top of my couch cushion to hold my charger up.. talk about desperate!

I've had my itunes on shuffle since I was finally able to start doing my school work.  When I got here at 11, one of my clients was waiting for me, she likes me for some reason.. must be the sarcasm.. anyways.. when I got here I wasn't able to get right to work so I've had the itunes on for about 2 1/2 hours now.. some of the songs I think to myself 'why do you have that?' and yet I still don't delete.. my ears are starting to hurt, I need a good pair of old school headphones.. I wanted the beats by dre ones but I read some bad reviews.. any suggestions, let me know

Wow, I can tell I'm getting tired, I am ranting!

I have a huge take home exam in Advanced Abnormal Psych due on Monday and I am barely halfway done with it and I'm blogging instead.  My middle name should really be Procrastinate.. and I mean that. Then on Wednesday I have a genogram due in Couples and Family Therapy, I need to tell my professor genogram is not a word because it's underlined here.  I am sure she made this up, a genogram, really?  It's like a family tree but in much greater detail.  It explains relationships and family secrets.  Oh, and I haven't started this genogram yet either and my family is not exactly small and simple either.  So I've used the word 'genogram' four times now.. moving on

No matter how confused and down I feel about my life, I still always manage to get out of bed everyday and so I think that must mean something.  Even though I don't always get out of bed around the same time, unless I have work, but at least it is something.  Life is surely very challenging at times, and just when I think it can't possibly surprise me anymore, it does just that.  I guess when life stops doing that is when I should be concerned.  Regardless of my depressed phases and circumstances, I still smile everyday and am thankful.  Even if I don't say it out loud and even if I am in one of my only say two words to everyone that loves me moods, I really am thankful and am still optimistic.  I have a wonderful supporting family and a few great friends, a cute little loud dog and my life in my control.

Until next time..
Oh and I don't recommend nightshifts.. although, on a positive note.. it did bring me to blog and customize my page a bit! (green is my favorite!)