The air has officially gotten its winter feel to it...

It makes it difficult to be motivated to do much of anything this time of year.  I'm sure in a few days I'll be used to it when I finally stop being stubborn and put on a winter coat.  For now, I'll risk catching a cold by only wearing two not so heavy layers.

Sickness has been taking a toll on my mood lately.  I try so hard to remain positive and I am the weeks he isn't sick but, the week of is almost unbearable.  I feel awful for my mother.  Her other half, her partner, her rock has never been so fragile before.  I can't imagine how she feels.  We all have a different role and mine is the daughter, the only daughter.  I'm helpless and I hate seeing him suffer with no way of making it better, not even just a little.  Now, as of this year, the two most important men in my life have been diagnosed with this awful cancer that kills so many more people than I ever took the time to realize.  Once it happens to you though is when you begin paying attention.  That's when you notice the death rates and the news and obituaries - the devastating heartbreaking stories of these families losing loved ones to this monster younger and younger each day it seems.

I didn't mean for this to turn into a depressing blog.  The trust I have for people has also left the building. My problem is I am too trusting and people take advantage.  The ones I do trust are traveling or living far.  We keep in touch but it's easier when they are here.  People are so damn hateful, it's disturbing.

On a brighter note, I had two presentations yesterday with the most uncooperative people I've ever met in my entire life and they are FINALLY over.  My first presentation wasn't bad and my partner was great.  She's older and in her late 60s, awesome woman.  My second group had five other people in it and I have never been treated with such disrespect by one of the members of this group - makes me wonder how they even got into the program in the first place - I mean it is professional counseling - be open minded here people! gesh!

I am finished with my rant..
If you're living somewhere cold, bundle up!